Thursday, September 20, 2007
Bad DaY
It's just an ordinary day i told myself..
Just a simple test, you have very much prepared for it.. I repeated
However, I panicked a bit for i din know how much time i have left and they called for pen down when i still have 2 blanks. I hurried and throw in 2 alphabets. Imagine how it feels when 3 friends have gotten the same answer while you didn't. Just another careless mistake I proclaimed. But i still cant get over it, for its the first test, and it is so depressing.. Same for the other test, i call it double fault.
Gotta trust in God, it must be a signal for me to be more careless and alert.. I have been working blindly, relying much on others' expertise. It's about time I teach, and not the other way round. I don't want to be the one who keep asking people to explain.. Gotta catch up with work during recess week.
And i guess my stress comes from the title of a award holder and also for someone who is supposed to be doing well.. Being labeled isn't fun at all.. Although i always say i don't aim high, but who wudn't want that A?
Jiayou~
Sunday, September 16, 2007
Not another depressing entry
No.. I'm not depressed, not at all. Just a bit lazy and i haven't had my hands on a lot of issues, so i am rather free, just me and my homework and homework. Just done with my English essay, going to start on my lab report, I'm a bit behind time now.
Heard from xiao mei that it was the end of her and leo. Although i only hear her side of the story, i think that very much speak for the relationship already. I believe that when we get ourselves into a relationship, we got to question whether we are able to commit into it completely, meaning are we able to spend that time with that special person without any grunts, able to compromise and accommodate each other. It is not just an on/off thing, if you feel like it commit, if you don't, then give that person a cold shoulder. It is always good to try and be in our people's shoes, to understand if it were to happen to you, are you able to accept that. Feel that its unfair for xiao mei, from the beginning she was very 'ye man' and pampered type. Slowly she became more lady like and gentle. She then learn to give in sometimes and let be. So much has been changed for the relationship but yet it still ended. Its not worth it at all, perhaps she deserves someone better. I always tell myself that.. the next one will be better. That ensures that once you are over with the aftermath, you are really done with it.
Will try to spend more time with her i guess, provided i can finish my work and stuff on time. Who said university is slack?
Heard from xiao mei that it was the end of her and leo. Although i only hear her side of the story, i think that very much speak for the relationship already. I believe that when we get ourselves into a relationship, we got to question whether we are able to commit into it completely, meaning are we able to spend that time with that special person without any grunts, able to compromise and accommodate each other. It is not just an on/off thing, if you feel like it commit, if you don't, then give that person a cold shoulder. It is always good to try and be in our people's shoes, to understand if it were to happen to you, are you able to accept that. Feel that its unfair for xiao mei, from the beginning she was very 'ye man' and pampered type. Slowly she became more lady like and gentle. She then learn to give in sometimes and let be. So much has been changed for the relationship but yet it still ended. Its not worth it at all, perhaps she deserves someone better. I always tell myself that.. the next one will be better. That ensures that once you are over with the aftermath, you are really done with it.
Will try to spend more time with her i guess, provided i can finish my work and stuff on time. Who said university is slack?
Tuesday, September 4, 2007
Smile
Well, finally i have the time and my hands are itchy to type once again. Having finished my first lab report and my first english assignment, i deem fit to take a good break from more breaks. Haa, it's down to the flooding tutorials that are drowning me. Imagine Statistics like a small wave, Chemistry like a bigger one and Maths like a tidal wave, a tsunami! But i have no choice but to step into the waters, for studies sake. I never say i don't like what i do, but just that it is the first time that i cant understand something even when i try to.
Anyway life has been great, that is why i wear a smile, i don't mean wear but i say wear, outside. Back at home, i love those hermit crab moments, so comfortable, so laid back. I enjoy friends' company too, just that it's the unusual side of me. Went back to church, find that she is very glad to see me back again, just feel that she is like god, who hasn't left me, even if i fall out of grace, even when i am outside the door, or even when i do something wrong, oblivious of his presence. My heart is guilty but my conscience is clear. So here i am, not trying to say much cos that is not important. What is important is to do what is said.
I kinda miss a lot of things, friends and moments. Oh yeah, my top 10 worthy CK is one of them, it is really weird that friends are leaving you one by one to far far away.. Now that the next one is Zhi En, i wonder who in the together 4eva besties are left.. One in Singapore, the other in aussie, one in China, the other in UK. International wor. I miss teaching too, back at woodgrove, miss my kids. Life is imperfect, when we gain some we lose some. When we lose some, we gain some. Realise that converse and statement are both true. I definitely hope that i am gaining more than i lose.
Live life to the fullest. 'Not anymore' is a very scary phrase. =] smile.
Anyway life has been great, that is why i wear a smile, i don't mean wear but i say wear, outside. Back at home, i love those hermit crab moments, so comfortable, so laid back. I enjoy friends' company too, just that it's the unusual side of me. Went back to church, find that she is very glad to see me back again, just feel that she is like god, who hasn't left me, even if i fall out of grace, even when i am outside the door, or even when i do something wrong, oblivious of his presence. My heart is guilty but my conscience is clear. So here i am, not trying to say much cos that is not important. What is important is to do what is said.
I kinda miss a lot of things, friends and moments. Oh yeah, my top 10 worthy CK is one of them, it is really weird that friends are leaving you one by one to far far away.. Now that the next one is Zhi En, i wonder who in the together 4eva besties are left.. One in Singapore, the other in aussie, one in China, the other in UK. International wor. I miss teaching too, back at woodgrove, miss my kids. Life is imperfect, when we gain some we lose some. When we lose some, we gain some. Realise that converse and statement are both true. I definitely hope that i am gaining more than i lose.
Live life to the fullest. 'Not anymore' is a very scary phrase. =] smile.
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